Bear
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Sunday, May 1, 2011
T +108
Dear Piglet,
When i saw you cry after i dropped your friends off with you at the airport, my heart melted. I was so helpless, i didn't know what to do to make you feel better. Or maybe, i knew what i could do, but i can't. I can't give you that hug, or hold your hand or let you lie on my shoulder because that would be inappropriate. I only managed an awkward weird position tap on your shoulder while driving. I want you to know that i am always here if you need anyone. Always.
It made me think of the time when we were preparing to go back for our June holidays in Year 2. You didn't get your venepuncture done properly and you insisted on staying back to go for the course. You wanted to despite everyone else leaving before you. I had to leave because of my trip and in that situation, i wasn't able to celebrate your birthday with you too. i remember while you walked me to the pick up point opposite south east flats with the rest of the people to catch the dandenong shuttle. when i was about to leave, you broke into tears. i shall not claim entire credit for that because you always reminded me to be humble. But i do believe that even though some of your best friends left together with me, you were sad because i left, mainly (being humble again). i melted then, and i gave you a kiss on your teary cheeks. that's despite being not officially together and in front of some of our close friends. I can still rmb how shocked you were, or maybe stunned. but i just like that look of yours whenever i pull a stunt. and while i was on the bus i talked to you all the way up till i boarded the plane.
partings are hard to bear. we've parted for quite some time, 108 days to be exact. but i certainly hope we haven't drifted apart. whatever lies in the future, i still hope that we have that place in our hearts for each other, friend, boyfriend, couples, just not enemies. If man had control of time, we would have controlled the universe. But we don't have that luxury. and therefore, we can only look forward and hope for the best. i am trying hard, but it will take time. i hope you would still be there.
and like mj said, i have to start thinking a little more about myself. been seeing you a little more often lately. going to just ease things off a little. hard thing to do, but discipline and some friendly moral support and distractions will help. sigh.
hope you aren't feeling that lousy now. really enjoyed spending 12 hours with you yesterday.
Bear
p.s.
just wanted to share something from xy's tumblr
'i freaking miss this' - xy
i freaking miss this too :/
When i saw you cry after i dropped your friends off with you at the airport, my heart melted. I was so helpless, i didn't know what to do to make you feel better. Or maybe, i knew what i could do, but i can't. I can't give you that hug, or hold your hand or let you lie on my shoulder because that would be inappropriate. I only managed an awkward weird position tap on your shoulder while driving. I want you to know that i am always here if you need anyone. Always.
It made me think of the time when we were preparing to go back for our June holidays in Year 2. You didn't get your venepuncture done properly and you insisted on staying back to go for the course. You wanted to despite everyone else leaving before you. I had to leave because of my trip and in that situation, i wasn't able to celebrate your birthday with you too. i remember while you walked me to the pick up point opposite south east flats with the rest of the people to catch the dandenong shuttle. when i was about to leave, you broke into tears. i shall not claim entire credit for that because you always reminded me to be humble. But i do believe that even though some of your best friends left together with me, you were sad because i left, mainly (being humble again). i melted then, and i gave you a kiss on your teary cheeks. that's despite being not officially together and in front of some of our close friends. I can still rmb how shocked you were, or maybe stunned. but i just like that look of yours whenever i pull a stunt. and while i was on the bus i talked to you all the way up till i boarded the plane.
partings are hard to bear. we've parted for quite some time, 108 days to be exact. but i certainly hope we haven't drifted apart. whatever lies in the future, i still hope that we have that place in our hearts for each other, friend, boyfriend, couples, just not enemies. If man had control of time, we would have controlled the universe. But we don't have that luxury. and therefore, we can only look forward and hope for the best. i am trying hard, but it will take time. i hope you would still be there.
and like mj said, i have to start thinking a little more about myself. been seeing you a little more often lately. going to just ease things off a little. hard thing to do, but discipline and some friendly moral support and distractions will help. sigh.
hope you aren't feeling that lousy now. really enjoyed spending 12 hours with you yesterday.
Bear
p.s.
just wanted to share something from xy's tumblr
'i freaking miss this' - xy
i freaking miss this too :/
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