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Dear Piglet,



Today is one day after i am back in melbourne, life seems destined for a great change, the food portions, the transportation system, the weather, and without her. But i will pull through i hope. met her today with her housemates, when they came over to find us to go to the city to get some food. was really glad to see her all safe and sound. she seems find, but just a bit tired. While making our way to the city, we talked quite a bit, so its rather heartening that we could still talk like last time. well, i am pretty clear of the lines i cannot cross, so i was actually glad that we could talk like that. made me feel more comfortable being just friends with her, the same old fang i knew all this while. we will jack each other, say insensitive remarks to each other and all. she even slapped me on the back. tsktsk, will get back at you one day.



She then told me about nicole talking to her, didn't tell me much of the contents of their conversation. She just keeps harping that nic is a really good friend and all. oh wells, what have u done nic, i really hope she doesn't know about this blog thingy and the fact that i haven't been coping well the past few days. Today is much better, like yesterday too i guess. maybe its cos i have been talking to her and seeing her today of course. I guess what she didn't know that keeping in touch with her made me feel better. Not the kind of feel that everything's not over and still the same kind of normal, but the i am glad we can still be like that without being together kind of normal. So yeah, it helps me believe that we can still have a friendship that is as special as before we told each other our feelings. Yup, so i guess i am happy these two days, i am more certain that i haven't lost her completely. This is actually not an emo post then.



Then we went to her place, me and beow, and i really want to thank beow for going with me, even when he might be thinking that he's a bit extra, but i guess it was more a courage or comfort booster of sorts that he's there too. terribly sorry for all the trouble so far, but i will definitely be nice to him in the days to come. I just spent the entire evening helping or watching her unpack. Really enjoyable though i should really have been home packing my own stuff. But who cares. I get to see her and talk to her, that's all's impt now. Her room does feel really cosy and omg PINK. So much pink, thinking of buying her a pink rubbish bin or something. if she puts on the pooh bedsheets i bought for her it will be even omg pink. Hope she's feeling well today having sneezed so much, either the dust or missing me too much. hahahas. she was tired for a bit, so i made her sit down and we played angry birds on her tablet. Pretty fun lar, makes me want to get one myself too. i shall just be patient and wait for my iphone. Oh and just for the record, she said she likes the piglet i gave her more than the one she got from another guyfriend. So i guess i win again. hahas. Sigh. I am glad we tried and i still do love her very much. Oh dear, what am i to do now.

Oh and yesterday she called me before she boarded the plane, i requested it. But she seems rather willing (for lack of a better word) to, and we were just like talking about anything. I was so tired waiting though, like at 130am then she called. but i was too anxious waiting i stayed awake despite dozing off all the way since 1230. and then she called again when she reached. I am hoping that this was like when we were together. But then again i am glad we can still do things like that happily even if we weren't together. Oh wells, i am one confused person.

special thanks to sandi who came over to do random stuff and just accompanying a lost soul like me. and of course, nicole if u did put in a few good words for me, all my classmates who came to send me off david tingfu andy and nic. and xy for all your hey are you ok and concern. Beow for being such a great friend and always being there.

I am so much happier today, in ying's terms, maybe 1 percent today :)

But piglet, you have no idea how much i missed you and i love you :):):)

Bear