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Dear Piglet,

Happy Valentine's Day. I just thought about it, i never had the chance to celebrate one with you. I was wondering what did i do for you and i went to check my passport. in 2009 that's when we first came over, we were just being in aussie for the first time. In 2010, i had chops on 13 and 15 of feb indicating i was in msia, probably a genting trip. I recall you were in penang or something just before and how it was annoying we keep missing each other. But i rmb sending you a valentine's day card did i not? yeah that's probably it. Well, in 2011 its obvious, all alone by myself. It such an insensitive day to those who are out of love. But sigh, i guess i wasn't lucky enough to make you feel like the girl in love going out on a date with her bf with a bouquet of flowers in her hand, a nice dinner prefably somewhere nice like clarke quay of sorts and a nice drive home. I really want to.

I am really a crazy person, i was so distraught if i should go find her on sunday night. luckily beow agreed to give me ride to her place. but the entire day, i was so distracted about what i was going to do. Its nth much, i only had a card and a flower for her. but i was so distracted, my heart was like racing like mad when i left house with beow. I guess u now know why i love nike, just do it. and partly a bit of encouragment from mj. I went to her place, and i decided i should just leave it and go, but xq's curtains weren't closed so i had to call her out lest i frighten someone. she came out, rather surprised i should say. she patted my head, i hoped she would hug me because i didn't dare to hug her first. She asked me in, but i didn't want beow to wait (another reason why i want a car). so i just wished her happy valentines day and goodnight and left. wasn't the kind of drama-ish meeting i would have expected. but i did what i wanted to do.

She called me after and we talked. we had only just spoken on saturday night. It was a normal talk, but i was really afraid that things have died out, maybe like running out of things to talk about? i dunnoe, maybe we were just tired, or i was being cautious. i was never really a talkative person in the first place. But i guess hearing her voice comforts me a bit. i really really hope we can still be the friends that we were before we got attached. and i will be patient.

I rmb the random things i did for your birthday last year. mcdonalds breakfast, bouquet of flowers and the card and the bottle of stars. i am still really proud of the effect i created although i couldn't be there to experience it first hand. being all the way in russia, it was kind of an achievement. and i still have that msg of yours in my phone with you saying how surprised you were.

And i rmb the last day of school last year, when i bought roses for the girls in south east, but i actually only wanted to buy them for you, three stalks on the table with elaborate petals around, u used the word elaborate rmb? three stalks meaning, I love you fang.

Bear